This photo was taken when Max was just a few days old.  What you probably see is a giant pacifier.  What I see if perfect little fingers, with perfect little fingernails, alert eyes, chubby cheeks, a perfect little nose.  My life is so incomplete without this perfect little person.  I am as sad for him as I am for me....or more.  He doesn't get a life - perfect or imperfect.  He had such a short time on this earth.  He'll never know how much his Daddy and I truly loved him.  He'll never know his younger brothers or sisters.  He'll never get to play with his dogs.  I feel like half a person.  I barely recognize myself without this little man.  My life will always be incomplete without him.